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I was on Facebook today looking for material and I came across a post by Tyler Perry.  He mentioned writing a letter to the child you once were.  What would you say to your “kid self?”   I spent some time thinking about this yesterday and I’m still not sure exactly what I would say to myself.   Maybe I would say “There is nothing wrong with you.   Just because you see the world differently does not mean that your view is wrong.”   Or perhaps, “Don’t be sad little Holly, everything will turn out great.   You are going to grow up to be an outstanding individual with lots of friends and people that love you just the way you are.” I can’t for the life of me figure out why I’m tearing up as I write this…   I suppose we choose to rewrite our past to make it better than it actually was, right?   I seem to “remember” having a great childhood.   I didn’t have a care in the world, right?   I think I was a happy child, wasn’t I? So Li...

I missed a very important trip this past weekend.  A few of our friends went to D.C. to visit Saxwell's mom, now affectionately known to our group as "Momma Sax."  I really wanted to go too but I just couldn't bring myself to make the trip.  You see with all of this recent self-discovery, I realized that I just didn't feel emotionally strong enough to handle making the trip.  I have a very odd situation going on with me.  I have to mentally prepare myself for travel in order to get through it.  I love the idea of traveling but yet I find it quite stressful and exhausting.  You know, getting to the airport, checking your bags, going through security all to end up sitting at the gate waiting...  Then, finding a seat on the plane, stowing away your carry-on luggage and so forth...  I thought better of making the trip because for some reason, my nerves have been frazzled lately.  I have no idea why. The idea of going through all that and t...

I did not think I would be doing a "re branding" job so early in the game but here it goes anyway.  One month ago today I accomplished something I was beginning to think I never would; I published my first book.   It is an autobiography but not in the sense of being self-promoting and self-congratulatory.   Okay, maybe a little self-congratulatory but if you don’t pat yourself on the back, who will?   This book is so much more than that though.   It’s about overcoming obstacles, learning to be comfortable in your own skin and living up to your full potential. The fact that I recently discovered I might be mildly autistic or high functioning autistic is a big factor but it is not the total package.   I want people who are autistic to read it but I want people who have never really had any dealings with autism to read it too.   Yes, there are individuals among us that are severely autistic and probably “easier to spot.”   But there ar...

I'm having one of those days...  What do I mean by that?  I have things I need to do.  Important things that I need to do but for the life of me I just can't seem to get it together today.  I have learned not to "beat myself up" when I have these days.  I simply need a "grown up time out."  Perhaps I need some of my beloved Green Tea with Ginseng and honey?  Perhaps I need to lower the lights and listen to some soft music for a while?  I will get it together but I now understand that for now, I need to take care of myself. There is nothing so pressing or urgent that it can't wait for a while.  I have a hair appointment later so that will be nice.  Perhaps I should consider squeezing in a pedicure on the way.  In a way, I am grateful for these days because it gives me some perspective when dealing with my son.  I know he's not being lazy.  He's just having one of those days...  Those of us with Asperger's Syndrome/Hi...

Monday Night Football starts tonight!  I should be beside myself with excitement.... But yet I am not.  You see, I don't think Monday Night Football will ever be the same again without hearing my good friend trash talking about his Redskins...  Now don't get me wrong, I am glad the season is getting into full swing but I miss my friend terribly. That's one somewhat painful side effect of all this wonderful self discovery.  I am feeling loss deeply today.  His birthday was bad enough.  I don't even want to think about the holidays but I digress... Tonight we will get together and watch the game.  But we will all be thinking about the fact that we most likely would have been at "Da laundramat" tonight.  We would have been listening to Saxwell talk trash about RGIII and the Redskins and laughing and enjoying every minute of it.  Tonight we will laugh and joke and probably have a great time but we will all still be thinking about our friend w...

Oh my gosh! How did I leave out starting my weekend at the Allstate Tom Joyner Family Reunion?  From the wheelchair races to the "twerking grandmas," it kind of defies description.  I have been to a few live TJMS but somehow this one seemed more fun with a group of friends.  I didn't get to take any pics with the celebs but I took a few of them and I will share them below.  It was very touching seeing Sabrina Fulton on stage and actually feeling the love and support in the room for her loss.  To me, it's always a source of pride seeing that many folks getting together and getting along.  It was a great way to kick off Labor day weekend. Huggy Lowdown at the Alstate TJFR J Anthony Brown Tom Joyner This has been a truly wonderful weekend! I had a chance to spend time with family and friends, went to some great parties and got a chance to rest, a little.  I am thankful for all the blessings I enjoy. The Day Party at Ember was trul...

“ Money is important but it should never be so important that you sacrifice your beliefs and principles .”   Holly Cooper So today is the 50 th Anniversary of the March on Washington.   It started me thinking about a few things…   I am a freelance writer.   I “sell” my blogs to websites that agree to pay me…minimally.   I write for one particular website which I will refrain from mentioning because in this litigious society, I can’t afford to get sued.   My point is this.   I have been noticing some rather racially charged posts recently on this particular site.   I am a writer.   I am all about free speech but when it appears to me that they are publishing this garbage like it is news rather than opinion, that’s where I draw the line.   I’m doing some big things and I’m pretty sure I don’t want my name associated with this garbage.   Now I’m far from stupid and I can see that these “controversial” posts generate quite a f...